Usually I share my testimony every year on the anniversary of my baptism, but it’s on my heart to talk about it tonight. November 1, 2020– the day my spirit was born.
I can and I will talk about it every year but there are truly no words to describe how my life was saved that day. In the 2-3 years before my baptism, I was walking down the darkest road I had ever walked in my life and I didn’t know how to stop. I craved validation and love so badly that I did things that hung over my head and on my shoulders. Proverbs 3:5 “Trust in and rely confidently on the Lord with all your heart
And do not rely on your own insight or understanding.” That was all I had to do. It was that simple. It breaks me to say this but my path was so dark I couldn’t see Him.
But then one day during quarantine I saw His light shining when I needed Him most. Divine appointments are real. I can’t pinpoint exactly what day it was but that was my first divine appointment. And that led me to November 1, 2020, when I wasn’t afraid to go under the water for the first time in my life, fully clothed but baring my suffering soul for the Lord, and I felt Jesus remove my sins and all the weight I held on myself and hold me close for a few glorious moments before I emerged anew.
Whoever I was before that moment on November 1, 2020 is gone. 2 Corinthians 5:17 “Therefore if anyone is in Christ [that is, grafted in, joined to Him by faith in Him as Savior], he is a new creature [reborn and renewed by the Holy Spirit]; the old things [the previous moral and spiritual condition] have passed away. Behold, new things have come [because spiritual awakening brings a new life].”
The me that focused on things of this earth was removed along with the sins that made that version of me. Jesus freed me from myself. If you knew me before that moment, you did not know me. The only me that you know, the real and true me, is the one that exists now. I will not change for anyone. I do not need your love, I do not need your validation, I don’t need anything from you. Because the Father loves me so deeply and passionately. His love is the ONLY love I need, and I have felt it around me and pouring into me every single day since November 1, 2020.
Being my true self is amazing. I’m not going to change. Ever.
God bless you all.
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